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November 15th, 2009
08:08 pm
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November 5th, 2009
03:45 pm
hurr lots of rhyming words
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November 2nd, 2009
05:30 pm - candybaarss
Halloween was fun, I've been slammed with homework all week and didn't plan on going out at all but Christina called around 10pm and GUILTED me into seeing a midnight Rocky horror at the Tampa Pitcher Show. It was fantastic.
Drew and the rest of the cheap little punks put on a stellar performance and by the end of the night I found myself in my underwear, halfway through my own pitcher of beer, running and singing as girls pelted me with candy. My candy-corn boxers were well received and a good night was had by all :)
I cannot believe it is November already, Jeez. Paper due tomorrow, math test on Wed, chem midterm on Thurs, and they are already selling eggnog in Publix.
also - the periodic table is fuckin awesome.
Current Location: underground
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonmama/sillysuns/blank.gif) faceless
Current Music: Black Eyed Peas - Meet me halfway
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October 31st, 2009
10:40 am - ATTN:
Dear Great Pumpkin,
All I want for Halloween is a bigger version of this image for my desktop:
And some peanut butter cups. Those would work too.
Current Mood: Chocolate
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October 7th, 2009
04:44 pm - welp
It's offical, I will follow the same path as every other Sachem graduate... off to -SCHOOL NAME IN EXOTIC LOCATION- only to return to the cold, formed concrete bosom of Suffolk/Stonybrook.
Comin home, bitches.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonmama/sillysuns/apathetic.gif) blah
Current Music: the Verve - Bittersweet Symphony
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October 6th, 2009
12:17 am - Songs I currently like a lot
The Killers concert last Friday was AMAZING - Chairlift opened and even joined in with them for a song towards the middle of the show - It was lovely. Seeing all ten of them rocking out together with saxophones synthesizers, and more pianos than should be allowed was really something special. We were hanging out with them after the show and the drummer totally signed my tits.
me and LANDON'S FACE
( clicky for piccy! )
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonmama/sillysuns/devious.gif) horny
Current Music: MGMT - Love always remains
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September 30th, 2009
12:27 am - Ugh
Most of my free time I've spent chatting or dicking around on the forums this past month and its starting to mess up my school/homework/priorities. I'm annoyed with me.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonmama/sillysuns/angry.gif) Grrr
Current Music: Radio Caroline
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September 23rd, 2009
08:44 pm - Wallpaper meme!
Yay! this meme has been a lot of fun to watch, so adding my own!
☞ Anyone who looks at this entry has to post this meme and their current wallpaper.
☞ Explain in no more than five sentences why you're using that wallpaper!
☞ Don't change your wallpaper before doing this! The point is to see what you had on!
Someone sent me this ages ago and I love it. The look of his eyes, the shading, the ridiculous colors, I love it. It was painted on what looks to be a brown paper bag too! how silly!
Real update coming soon(ish) there may be a changing in the winds....
studystudystudystudystudy
Current Location: Chemistryland
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonmama/sillysuns/cool.gif) calm
Current Music: Chemistry - The Chemists.
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June 23rd, 2009
09:04 pm - Waiting for the time, when I can finally say... This has all been wonderful, but now I'm on my way.
So, alright. That last post (before the AAHH one) was alarmingly depressing and I think I need to explain myself.
I am a very impatient person. When I want something, it better happen soon after I want it or I get all bothered. It is damn motivating, but in certain situations you have to do the time before you can do what you want to. I'm not good at dealing with that.
I’m not upset, I’m not suicidal, I’m not ronery, and in fact things are going pretty good down here. This has been a huuuge change of ..everything and It was hard to adjust at first. I have room to relax now and it’s much clearer that I was just worrying about nothing. Thank you to everyone who let me whine to them. I owe you dinner.
Being 100% out of my element sucks. Not knowing anyone, and having to use a GPS to get ANYWHERE sucked, not having my own place sucked, not having anything to do Friday nights.. suuuucked. I’m figuring it out. Starting to love driving down here (85 on the highways, what), getting used to living in someone else’s house, and making friends to bother on weekends. This was good for me. I was looking for something to shake up my life and I certainly found it.
School and work have been pretty rough. The place I’m working decided to tack an extra hour on to the workday after I started without any sort of pay raise. Lovely. I got a job managing the computer systems for about 20 companies. It’s not hard work… but it is very frustrating. No documentation, no control of the networks, no antivirus in many cases, no backups…. I spent the first few months driving all over the place to take care of silly crap that could have been handled remotely. Things are starting to level off with that and I have a couple of big projects coming up to look forward to... but the hours still suck ass.
School has been veeerry taxing too. I was convinced halfway through the semester that I was going to fail every one of my classes. That didn’t happen. In fact I got all A’s (except for ASL1 – B) and my GPA is a 3.6! *proud*. This summer I’m taking my second (and last ever) English course and have gotten an A on every paper so far. It’s so weird to think about…. This coming spring I will graduate with my AA. Like… halfway done with this…
I start my first serious college courses in the fall, into to calc and chemistry sound scary… definitely going to have to work on studying more, but it’s going to be fun to learn something new, and play with the test tubes. I do feel like the “weird old guy” around campus but it is what it is. I’m fine with being “that dude who can buy us beer”.
I haven’t updated much because not much has been going on. Most days I get up, go to work, continue on to school, and then do homework until I fall asleep. Rinse and repeat. This weekend my LAST paper is due in English and holycrapiwillhavenoideawhattodowithmyself. I am freakin looking forward to that.
So, that’s been the story with me. I think this is the most boring entry I’ve ever written on LJ.
( Here is the AC meme that everyone has been doing )
Current Location: Bed
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Deadliest Catch on TV
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June 21st, 2009
11:18 pm - aaahhhhhh!
holyshitacisintwoweeks
Current Location: Aaaaaaaaaaaahhh
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonmama/sillysuns/bouncy.gif) wooooaaaaahh
Current Music: Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh
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May 10th, 2009
04:55 am
Its nights like tonight. I cant explain it, what triggers it or how I know. Nights where all I can do is nervously look down at the same dimly lit green screen, load the same playlist and close my eyes tight and try and breathe. Its instantaneous. The first bars hitting my ears and there I am. Right back where this all began. The cold, the smells, the sounds, the same combination of excitement, dread, and pure fight or flight panic filling my soul and pushing everything else outward.
It’s hard to open my eyes again. I look around and remember where I am and more importantly, why. The series of events rush past my eyes and I can instantly recall all of the other times I’ve felt like this since. Remembering the nights of holding on to something white knuckle tight and not even being able to find the breath to cry, the anger, hurt, frustration that even violence would not do anything to stop.
I don’t know what sets this off. I can usually feel the onset a few days in advance, the nagging in my head beginning to get stronger and gnaw its way a bit closer to the surface.
I get frustrated sometimes, I wonder what I would be like if things didn’t end up this way, if I would have never thought of any of this in the first place. I get scared because of how much of my life it has changed and how many of the decisions I make every day all stem from this. I wont say it’s been all bad – I don’t think I’ve ever been so passionate or motivated to do anything. I remember the mornings, dragging myself out of bed before sunrise, wiping the snow off my car, remembering the cold. Remembering, this is the price I am paying, I deserve this. The feel of the freezing air over my face driving, the same few bars of the same song from the same dim green screen reaching my ears as I scream as loud as I can along with the first track – the weirdest combination of rage, crying, and pure kick ass adrenaline surging through my mind as I begin my day.
I’m not sure why I was so motivated to update this, especially after so long, and especially with something like this. I read LJ every day and almost every day I feel like I should write …something. I get scared. I make reasons not to or find something else to do.
Things are pretty good here – I have a good job, I will have paid off my moving expenses in a month or two more, and I just finished my first year of college. I’m making friends, getting out more, and meeting people I think will be good to know for where I want this to all lead. Why though? Why am I here, why am I doing this? Why does it matter to me to the point where I’ve re-arranged everything to make it happen. I worry that when I get there… what next? What do people do? I get so frustrated with the people around me spending their moments in front of a metal box in an even bigger, cold box working their lives away to buy even bigger boxes to stare into. I don’t get it. I don’t want to get it, I want company on my path but I feel like there isn’t anyone else who gets it – they are all weird. And then it hits me that I am the one sitting in the dark, on the sand surrounding the Gulf of Mexico typing my thoughts into this. Alone.
I wouldn’t change any of this. I am happy, excited, and honestly a bit scared about where I will end up. I just wish I knew why. Everyone else I talk to has a why, mostly (by my overly judgmental opinion) superficial or inaccurate ones but they still have one. Their life and end goals are not the results of nights of cold sweats and staring daggers at someone as they hurry out of a room.
I feel like a fake sometimes because of this, it throws me off, all the thoughts telling me that im not cut out for this, im wasting my time, the probability of getting where I want to be is so low its not worth trying. This gets worse especially when I get in this mood. Your too old, your not attractive enough, you wont be able to make it through school, you will get lazy, you will get bored with it, you wont be able to make a living, your going to get to the end and still not find what you want.
I feel like I’m rambling and im going to take a nap here for a while and clear my thoughts
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February 1st, 2009
09:38 pm - Wiggly ball championship
This sums up the last few years perfectly :D
Current Location: couch
Current Music: personal foul, unnescicary roughness
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January 7th, 2009
January 2nd, 2009
08:42 am - The time has come when I can finally say...
Stolen from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) warsawkook
( Let me tell you about my wiener )
Current Location: up too late
Current Mood: BORING AND VANILLA
Current Music: Phish - Down with Disease
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December 26th, 2008
01:59 am - Silent Night
I had a very good Christmas.
Tonight I am going to bed somewhere familiar, somewhere I feel safe and welcome and where I can't help feeling like is home. I find myself pretending that tomorrow I will wake up to some random July morning, roll over and have a laugh about the most surreal dream I've had in a long time.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonmama/sillysuns/happy.gif) happy
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December 15th, 2008
09:37 pm - Hide the eggnog!
I'll be home for Christmas.
12/23 TPA -> JFK arrive @9:40pm
12/28 JFK -> TPA depart @8:40pm
Current Location: TROPICS
Current Mood: Eeeeeeeeeee
Current Music: Brad Paisely - online
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November 19th, 2008
06:18 pm
Stolen from taekkan1
So, Pyrophin, your LiveJournal reveals...
You are... 4% unique (blame, for example, your interest in rollerhuskying) and 12% herdlike (partly because you, like everyone else, enjoy theatre). When it comes to friends you are popular. In terms of the way you relate to people, you are wary of trusting strangers. Your writing style (based on a recent public entry) is conventional.
Your overall weirdness is: 27(The average level of weirdness is: 29.
You are weirder than 60% of other LJers.)
Find out what your weirdness level is!
I guess everyone is rollerhuskying these days. Time to find a new hobby.
Three story Chinese buffet tonight!
Current Location: Hungary
Current Mood: Hungery
Current Music: Food
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10:52 am - Marf...
I’m not a guy who is good at taking compliments. Thank you for all your kind words and well wishes for the move. I miss everyone… It’s taking a lot of getting used to not having all my friends around, but having you all there to talk to and laugh with on the puter and phone makes me happy. There is a very good chance I will be back on the island for Christmas, this 75 degree weather is weirdin me out just as much as seeing people with plastic snowmen lit up under their palm trees. I know draganta has a meet the Sat before Christmas but I do not know when exactly I will be flying in. We will work something out :D
I have pictures up from the fondue party!!! It went off better than I could have imagined, the only regret was not having a proper dining room and enough chairs for everyone. Special thanks go out to the peeps that helped me push the boat out of the back… in the mud… in the pouring rain.
Click for more!
Things have been leveling out here. I got my plates and license changed over last week, I took the placement tests for college yesterday (did very well ^.^) and today I am running errands and getting things in order for MFF and such. Tomorrow I’m flying up to Ohio to meet my phinslice fuzzyfin and roadtrip it up to the con. Going to hang out and see the sights in Chicago/Ohio until Wednesday then fly in to JFK to head upstate with scittersferret and thilus for Thanksgiving. I can’t wait!!
Apart from college and errands I have been keeping busy here. longbottle has been showing me around Tampa while telling me at length all the things he doesn’t like, lots of time at the beach, INSANE flea markets all around on weekends, hanging with my uncle and aunt, and studying haven’t left me with many booooreedd moments. Argh, I miss everyone… several times a day I’ll see something and get excited to go back and check it out with whomever, only to realize they are miles and miles away. Everyone, move here.
I did get to check out Ribfest last weekend. It was beautiful. I have always wanted to go to a pro BBQ event but they don’t exist up north. I had an unhealthy amount of ribs and beans sitting under a palm tree beside the ocean while the Doobie Brothers played on stage. I think the South and I are starting to get along nicely.
More Pork?
Some stuff down here is taking a bit to get used to. The driving puts NY and LI to shame, its no wonder you must re take a road test when transferring a FL license to most other states, Christ. I’m half convinced they give them out in cereal boxes. Gas pumps that don’t have the lock things removed are a real treat, but not having vapor recovery on the nozzles irritates me, that and finding out Florida got rid of motor vehicle inspections five years ago. There are NO emissions tests, no safety tests, no anything. You can drive your black smoke spewing, oil dripping, piece of shit until it falls apart and nobody cares. Ugh.
I do like how friendly people are, everyone I've talked to has a story and doesn't mind sharing it. The cost of living and schooling here is ridiculously cheap and the food is good as long as you don't expect to eat the same things you did back home. I don’t know if this is the place I will be calling my permanent home, we are just starting to get to know each other. But as far as homes go, for now, it’s more than adequate.
Current Location: Bed
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Jimmy Buffet - Changes in Attitudes
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November 16th, 2008
10:51 pm - Florida
So, I'm here and in one piece. I got into Tampa around 6pm on Tuesday and have been busy getting paperwork and my living arrangements in order. This is very, very weird.
The drive down was uneventful. Towards the Jersey border I got a check engine light and the transmission on the Phinmobile started acting funny. I have had a problem with it for a while but towing the trailer seemed to agitate things even more. Once I shifted out of overdrive and kept it under 55 things were OK. It's still kinda crappy... I didn't get to stop at any of the places I had planned along the way.
( Clicky for more! )
Current Location: Seminole, FL
Current Mood: Schnazzy
Current Music: ZZ Top - Cheap Sunglasses
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November 5th, 2008
05:22 pm - Party update!
Just a reminder that this Friday starting at 8 is my sexy fondue party! I am compiling a list of people who are coming so I can make sure there is enough cheese and chairs!
If you plan on crashing, bring pillows/blankets/pajamas. We have ample floor space but said floor is Pergo and not the best thing to sleep on.
People who have confirmed:
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Thy
Ferret
Skyay
Skyjay's bird friend
Husky
Warsy
Mr. F
Pkitty
Chuck Shada
Amadeus
kemeeeeelion
Gadas
Tokoro
Firefox
Freakylynx
Jbadger
People who have mentioned coming but I do not know for sure and would like to!
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Warsy's hairy gentlemen friend
Rick
Smitty
Cubbi
Mae
Hypedingo
Merlechantox
Toboe25
Xerxes
Vulpix1985
Cubsy
Scully
Fossil
Josh
Leave me a message on IM if you need addresses/directions. Reply and let me know if I forgot to add you to the list, or what your status is!
Current Mood: Hungry
Current Music: Ben Folds - You dont know me
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